Moon Goddess

Personal Deities
Well, to be honest, I don't exactly have a personal deity. It's not because I think it's nonsense, it's more of, I don't feel right deciding upon one deity to worship.

My strong area of worship is to the Moon. It was the Moon that drew me into Wicca, and it is the Moon that I look at before and after every ritual, (clouds permitting of course : )

I feel close to the Moon and Her beauty, I feel like She has been with me my entire life. I remember as a teen when I used to sneak out of my house, often it wasn't to do anything wild and crazy, it was just to go down to the river and sit on the bridge just watching Her in Her glory. I didn't know about Wicca, or other pagan religions back then. But somewhere, deep inside me, I knew that there was something special about the Moon. She was always there watching over me, was there when I did something good or bad. It was like something that I could always grasp, no matter how bad things got. I would always notice what phase She was in, and could just gaze upon Her for hours.

Of course, I have books about Moon worship, but even those aren't all right. The best rituals I have found have been online.. ; ) that and meditations.. I really enjoy the meditations for the Full Moon.

Upon reading, I see that the Moon is quite often the main thing that draws many people to worship. In Lady of the Night by Edain McCoy, she states that the moon is the "mythological link which pagans today still honor, and to which they are most strongly drawn. When asked about their first experience with Paganism and/or Witchcraft, or their first inkling that they might be interested in a spiritual path older than the ones offered daily by the larger culture, a great many cite the moon as that catalyst. They speak of sitting alone looking up at the night sky, of watching the moon wax and wane and feeling that somehow they ought to be attuning to Her subtle changes. They sensed that something within themselves was missing, being neglected; something was hidden which they should find and be able to understand and express. Instinctively, they all looked first to the moon to fill that unnamed void." (page x)

This is exactly, almost word for word how it happened to me.

One of the meditations I do during the Full Moon is visualization. Basically, I visualize myself lifting higher and higher out of my body until I reach Her. Once I am blinded by the nearness of Her light and beauty, She changes into human form, with Her gossamer dress flowing gracefully around Her as the stars are able to shine again around Her in a magical dance of twinkles and glitter. She smiles at me then and always gives me a hug, then we sit on a passing pillow of clouds and talk for a while, about anything and everything.

It is a beautiful time, relaxing and thought-provoking, which I look forward to monthly, if distractions are minimal and I'm at the right state of mind. Everything is always so much better after our "talk", and I see things in a clearer light, but then, doesn't everything look different by the light of Her face? The Full Moon always gives things a different perspective and it is that perspective that I love and yearn for.

Blessed Be!