6 August 2001

I had a great day today.

As I was driving in to work, I saw a family of deer. They were beautiful, and frisking in a field nearby. At work, we sold many books for the new school year, then on the way home, I saw another couple of deer. They weren't in the same place, so I don't think they were the same ones. I thanked the Goddess for seeing the deer, safely passing them by, and for the great day I had. I almost think She sent the deer to remind me of Her presence. I was busy contemplating my day at the time, and hadn't thought to give Her credit, so She sent me a sign to remind me. Shame on me for not thinking of it.

I do that sometimes, I used to be better, thanking Her for a good day, or finding the good in a bad day to thank her for.. lately, I've been slipping. My plans for the full moon fell through. I knew I was going to have company (found out that morning) so I figured we would 'party it up' that evening, however, things did not turn out that way, and we sat around drinking quietly and talking and playing a few games. I don't know why partying was a good idea, but I was hoping to go to a bar and toast the Goddess to myself. Now that I think about it, my line of thinking must not have been clear. Weird.

I think my new job is going to get to me that way. It is such a highly religious area, and I know that I must be very careful. I'm glad we don't live in that community yet, but I could see us moving there. Right now, I am driving 50 minutes one way to and from work. I love the down time, but I wonder if I will love it for the next three years while my husband finishes school. I don't see us moving any closer because it is further away from the college that he is going to.

Well, time will tell. The Goddess has patience and so must I. Things will work out the way they are supposed to, as long as I follow through with my side of them. I'm a fighter, so if things get tough, I will prally fight them till I fix them, or there is nothing left to fight. Maybe nothing will need to be fought. I really like this new job, and I hope that I can keep it. It would be one I wouldn't mind retiring at many years from now.

Blessed Be!